Last night I had a dream. I dont remember much but it apprars the scene was set in Old Harbour, a specific road in coose to Marlie Mount. My Dad must have been working to build the road with some foreigners. They asked me to mix a chemical solution, somethig went wrong and a fire was started. Luckily it was put out. I coulf sense my Dad’s dissapointment with me.
The scene then transformed to a Boardroom meeting where everyone there knew about my accident. I failed to make a good first impression and was dissapointed.
The scene then transformed to a ball room. A Fashion Show or something was kept there. I was assisting cleaning up. A male friend, I cant remwmber who, offered me cake, Id given mine away and gave away this piece too. Then as we were cleaning up, I saw Keisha in a wedding dress. I started hugging her in a usual friendly manner, lifted her up playfully, slid her back down and hugged her. To my surprise, she hugged me for longer and longer, then it became more than a hug, an embrace. It felt like the warmth I had been searching for my entire life. The crowd started applauding. I slowly kissed her cheek, almost on reflex, like my body wasn’t mine anymore….but ours. We kissed, almost like a movie coming to real life. That single moment, that couldnt have been more than a minute, felt like 20 years, as I embraced and was felt love with the one woman I was meant to be with. It was like a never ending dream filled with genuine love, hope, comoassion, bliss, struggle and happiness, all while the music played in the background. Even with our coworkees there, and we knew the repercussions, the consequences, but for that one moment…the world stood still for us. Nothing else mattered, not history, not war, not present, not future, nothing but uUS and me realizing, the woman of my dreama had been right in front me the whole time.
Then I woke up.
I’ve been alone for so long. For this brief momemt, in my dreams, I remembered what it was like to finally not only to love but to have someone truly love me too. Haven’t felt this way in about 9 years.
In real life, Keisha is with a wealthier and better man and I….havent been with anyone for about three years.